As a little girl and even in high school, I was normal- not thin or skinny but very average. I gained weight in college and then lost it. I gained even more weight after college and lost it all again. Throughout the past 10 years I have probably I gained and lost over 200 pounds. It just gets harder and harder with time... I thought I would never say that!
As I tend to do, I made excuses for my weight gains and failed attempts to lose. Let me explain. I would tell myself, "your an athlete, and athletes are thick!" Or "you are tall, so you can handle the weight," or even better "it must be a fat mirror, you don't really look like that." All of these things helped me cope with my weight, its like I was trying not to develop a poor body-image, but all I was doing was making excuses.
I am a very fortunate that I don't have a poor body-image, but now I have a realistic grasp- I am overweight and I need to change. I'm not ugly and have the curvy/camouflages weight well/you don't look like you weigh that much body type. I have an awesome husband who is in love with me, a wonderful family and great friends. They all tell me, "you are pretty so people don't notice the fat" (obviously paraphrasing). HOWEVER... i'm not happy with my body and I want to change it!
Since December 2009, I have been researching lap-band surgery. (I have secretly been obsessed with reading all the awesome lap-band blogs! ) I have finally made the decision- NO MORE EXCUSES- I am going to get banded!
I am awaiting insurance approval, and will keep updating as info comes in.
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